"I know that. I've always trusted you," he declared sharply. Biting back a growl, he shook his head. "You wouldn't have sold out James and Lily. How could I have been so thick to believe he cared about us?" Sirius lifted a hand, briefly fisting his hair before releasing it.
"Albus. Albus came to me, told me that You Know Who would think of me first. It seemed so obvious when he said it. I was their best man, Harry's godfather. Of course they'd make me secret keeper. I told him I didn't care. They could do their worst, I'd never give them up, but Albus, he, well, you know how he can be. Could be," Sirius stated with a heavy sigh, taking another drink. He felt sick to his stomach that Remus would think he'd work for Voldemort.
Remus shook his head. Yes, he knew exactly how Dumbledore could be. "I guess we were all thick to believe he cared. I'm sorry for giving you the cold shoulder." He wished they could all be how they once were. Maybe they could be friends again. Remus was sure that if he got in a jam, Sirius would have his back once more.
"I'm sorry I didn't trust you. I know you wouldn't have sold out James and Lily." It didn't make complete sense then and it didn't now either. He could see the inconsistencies in everything.
"I don't blame you, Remus. Just being here instead of there, I know how that is. It's not easy," Sirius admitted with a shrug. He was struggling to rein in his feelings from talking about that day. Even with James and Lily alive and happy here, he couldn't erase 12 years of Azkaban, not in a day, not in a lifetime.
"How are you settling in?" he asked, striving to find something 'normal' to talk about. Striving to find a way to reconnect with his old friend, though the lack of trust grated with him deeply.
"It's going well. Two full moons so close together really did me in though. Other than that, it's going well. I work in security. Very little contact with people. Old habits die hard. What about you? How's life for you here?" Remus asked him, ordering another drink.
This was normal. He liked this. He could learn to trust Sirius again; there was no doubt in his mind. Maybe it would even be like old times.
"Then you aren't on the portal teams. You know, if you wanted, you could teach here. Old habits and all," Sirius told him, pausing to ask the barmaid for a refill when she arrived.
"Life is... entirely different here. I scout for Kingsley mainly, when I'm not side-alonging engineering wizards over to Australia. I try to look in on Lily at least once a week. I'd do it more but I don't want to, well, come across like a creepy old man," he admitted.
Remus couldn't help but chuckle at Sirius' last comment. "Yeah, it was pretty weird to see the old20 year old Lily." He paused a moment. "21?" He shrugged. "I'm sure she appreciates it either way. Every time I've met up with her she seems like the Lily I remember. She seemed surprised to see me 'old'."
Remus returned to Sirius' first statement. "People still don't want to associate with me, Sirius. I don't make public knowledge of myself, but people talk. I figure the less they see of me, the better. I know it doesn't help the rumors, but..." he shrugged. "Ginny Weasley wants to study me this month. Without the Wolfsbane. Trust me, she'd be safe. I wouldn't agree if she wasn't going to be safe. She wants to study things to help werewolves and educate the public. I can't argue with the last one."
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Date: 2013-03-09 07:10 pm (UTC)"Albus. Albus came to me, told me that You Know Who would think of me first. It seemed so obvious when he said it. I was their best man, Harry's godfather. Of course they'd make me secret keeper. I told him I didn't care. They could do their worst, I'd never give them up, but Albus, he, well, you know how he can be. Could be," Sirius stated with a heavy sigh, taking another drink. He felt sick to his stomach that Remus would think he'd work for Voldemort.
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Date: 2013-03-09 07:19 pm (UTC)"I'm sorry I didn't trust you. I know you wouldn't have sold out James and Lily." It didn't make complete sense then and it didn't now either. He could see the inconsistencies in everything.
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Date: 2013-03-10 03:33 am (UTC)"How are you settling in?" he asked, striving to find something 'normal' to talk about. Striving to find a way to reconnect with his old friend, though the lack of trust grated with him deeply.
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Date: 2013-03-10 03:38 am (UTC)This was normal. He liked this. He could learn to trust Sirius again; there was no doubt in his mind. Maybe it would even be like old times.
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Date: 2013-03-10 04:14 am (UTC)"Life is... entirely different here. I scout for Kingsley mainly, when I'm not side-alonging engineering wizards over to Australia. I try to look in on Lily at least once a week. I'd do it more but I don't want to, well, come across like a creepy old man," he admitted.
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Date: 2013-03-10 04:22 am (UTC)Remus returned to Sirius' first statement. "People still don't want to associate with me, Sirius. I don't make public knowledge of myself, but people talk. I figure the less they see of me, the better. I know it doesn't help the rumors, but..." he shrugged. "Ginny Weasley wants to study me this month. Without the Wolfsbane. Trust me, she'd be safe. I wouldn't agree if she wasn't going to be safe. She wants to study things to help werewolves and educate the public. I can't argue with the last one."