Unintelligible whispers chased around the edges of his thoughts, conflicting arguments rising and falling over and over again, the same caution of distance swelling loudly even as he struggled to ignore them. He believed he was endangering her, even now, just by being around him - his life was cursed and anyone how had been close to him had been consumed by that curse. 'Is it worth it? Sacrificing her life for a brief moment of happiness' Remus' voice rose up from the chaotic jumble and Sirius jaw tightened. 'I can protect her.' he thought as his fingers smoothed over her skin, silently mapping the smallest curves. "None of them do," he admitted softly. He didn't know her relationship history but he couldn't imagine to be worse than his.
The door closing only reinforced what she was saying but she couldn't possibly understand what that meant to him. He was raised with a certain degree of civility that he couldn't shake, no matter what. Even in Azkaban, those thoughts had strengthened him. "You don't know what you're asking, Cecilia," Sirius cautioned, taking a step away, his hand moving to rest on her shoulder for a moment before dropping away. "That last... involvement I had was just after Hogwarts. I can't - being a gentleman is part of who I am. I can't just step out of that."
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Date: 2012-12-09 12:17 am (UTC)The door closing only reinforced what she was saying but she couldn't possibly understand what that meant to him. He was raised with a certain degree of civility that he couldn't shake, no matter what. Even in Azkaban, those thoughts had strengthened him. "You don't know what you're asking, Cecilia," Sirius cautioned, taking a step away, his hand moving to rest on her shoulder for a moment before dropping away. "That last... involvement I had was just after Hogwarts. I can't - being a gentleman is part of who I am. I can't just step out of that."